おじいさん

ご冥福を祈ります。

R.I.P. Grandpapa.

Goodbye 2010

First off,

Happy New Year Everyone!

2010 was an interesting year for me, but not as bad as 2009.

The beginning of 2009, I thought my life was falling apart, but luckily started to patch it up near the end.

2010 came, and it had it's ups and downs. It felt like what I tried to patch up in 2009 wasn't exactly fixed, as if there were cracks in the structure I built.

My year (good and bad):

• Was rather "giri giri" with things this year...
  
• Went to Siggraph, my first industry event really. Also had my first drink there (since it was free!) at the Houdini 11 launch party.
• Better understanding of people. It made me cynical, upset, and a bit angry, but also taught me to chill & just live life no matter what others say or don't say.
• Dated a guy I had a crush on since I started at the new school, but it ended badly & drained me.
  
• September was full of stress + a broken heart, which lead to me losing about 25 pounds in 2 weeks (yikes). This was probably my lowest point of the year.
• Picked up playing bass again
• Picked up dancing again
  
• Slowly tried to break out of my shell, and make major changes (inside and out) for better or worse.
• Learned the power of confidence - it really does make a difference! I kind of steered away from this the last week of December, but after being in good company for New Years, I remembered confidence makes you happier. It also keeps you from doubting yourself, and helps give you that extra push to take risks.
• Tried to be more like Summer (from 500 days of Summer), after being like Tom (same movie) my whole life.
  
• Met Mike out of the blue during a very strange & confusing time in my life.
• Made new friends

What I want to achieve this new year:

1. Be determined with everything I set out to do - I want to be successful! I need to give everything 110%! (school, art, pixel punch, health, zombie apocolypse prep...etc)
   
2. Try to be carefree & chill - Sometimes I can get a bit paranoid and think too much. I need to stop sweating the small stuff.
   
3. Take risks; be more adventurous - I'm young, and need to do more.
   
4. Be happy - I sometimes put myself down, and this leads me to be moody and unpleasant. I've also held in so much for so long, and I think I've reached the point in which it's too much to hold back. I apologize to anyone who has been around me when I'm a downer, but I thank those who stuck around.
   

I also got a tarrot card reading from my Noel tonight. It surprisingly did answer most of the things I was thinking about, as well as one thing I wasn't really thinking about (because I thought it was over with).

I hope this new year is amazing!

His & hers flasks!